"toilet talk"
Monday, July 26, 2010I'm not the kind who talks a lot unless needed. That was due to a lot of things in the past where my mouth just didn't do me any favors and landed me in a load of shit.
Rather, I'm one who thinks a lot. I have thoughts and stuff in my mind that only God will ever know (or someone who can read minds, like a certain vampire that sparkles in the sun).
I feel like I've lost my way somehow, like I don't know what I want in life anymore.
Well, I kinda want a lot of things, but I don't know which path to take.
It's like someone scrambled every possibility in my life and made them all seem as important as the other.
But obviously, it was me, myself who landed my mind in this pool of dilemma.
And I often take other people's feelings into account and how my move would make me look before I decide. Which in turn resulted with me ending up in this roller-coaster of confusion.
I hate it that my life is taking on a day-by-day routine.
Waiting for something or someone to change the way it is. But that day just doesn't seem to come.
I'm not a patient person either. (maybe God is testing my patience?)
I hate not knowing where my life is headed. It sucks not knowing.
And it doesn't help that I'm thinking all these thoughts while sitting on the toilet bowl.
My last thought: I so need to blog every thought so that I would never forget this confusing moment of my life.
Hence, this post.
xxx
2 comments
i wish my toilet time will be as productive as yours..great post to share your thoughts....
ReplyDeleteyup very true,half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.For some reason this has made us to watch cinema alot.cinema is not real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.(relaxed while watching??,put aside all the shit we go through..)
There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.Therefore open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living? if you luv it, then u will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for you.but if dont, juz appreciate all the fruits of life that you enjoyed throughout your life and move on with determination in your own rate.
compare your life with other,this would totally give sense of appreciation of what you have accomplished.Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live!
i wish my toilet time will be as productive as yours..great post to share your thoughts....
ReplyDeleteyup very true,half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.For some reason this has made us to watch cinema alot.cinema is not real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.(relaxed while watching??,put aside all the shit we go through..)
There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.Therefore open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living? if you luv it, then u will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for you.but if dont, juz appreciate all the fruits of life that you enjoyed throughout your life and move on with determination in your own rate.
compare your life with other,this would totally give sense of appreciation of what you have accomplished.Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live!
Say anything but please say what you mean.